T'was the holiday season upon us.

Well folks the holiday season is here and I guess I should write something. I've notoriously been blue this time of year. With the dark cold days and Tidbit out of the cold Hudson before it freezes. But its always been hard this month ya see my mom passed away in December as well as her birthday was always in December. Add to the fact that I no longer have the perfect little life with the family and house all lit up with stocking hung on the fireplace mantel and a little girl running down the stairs waiting to see what Santa dropped off. Hell I don't even have a tree or any decrations in my apartment, I know kinda sad but I prefer it that way. Now add to the fact thatwhile I was cleaning out a bunch of bins in my closet and came across a whole stack of love notes from Tabitha. Amazing how the tide of emotions can change, still brings me to my knees. I seriously have got to get over this so little suprises like this do not spin me as hard. I'm currently seeing a beautiful woman who loves me madly and who I'm slowly letting myself open up too. But as you can see I have burn marks from the last love that prevent me from burning myself again. I've decided to live in the moment for now and take it in little emotional bites. So I will be spending Chrismas Eve with Tess and Christmas Day with Renee.

Aside from that I'm starting to feel more balance and stability in my life. I'm working at this gormet concept and its both challenging and rewarding. Its not a huge money maker but it affords me way more comfortability than I've been used to in a long time. Its also very good for my soul. Also I never have to worry about ever going hungry LOL.

The sailing season is obviously over, we waited far to long to pull Tidbit and ended up in strong wind and freezing weather haul out. But she is safely on her trailer and covered for the winters nap.

But living in the moment has its simple joys. I'm composing this while sitting at a sun lit cafe table in the place that I run, with a good cup of coffee and a fresh hot buttered scone. People walk through the door and nod and smile and greet me now by name. I chat with regulars it has become a "Place" with a life and heart of its own and I'm a part of that experience. The sun feels especially nice. I hope everyone enjoys this Holiday Season.